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desire, #elching*

October 27, 2007

I gave you my future where I knew it wouldn’t survive. How could you selfishly take my existence only to shit it back out? I want to suck the life out of you. I want to suck you so dry that only I can relieve your thirst. And you will beg me for it, parting your lips and rolling your tongue as you tell me to kiss you. This is true desire.

*Disclaimer: It doesn’t surprise me that this word was suggested by my dear and close friend but I fear that if I spell it out, I’ll start getting the wrong kind of hits.

Whew! And that’s the end of the week-in-writing-exercises. Thanks for the inspiration. Aside from the blog I am happily (at the moment) working on a new short story. And I got a job! But more on that later….

Today is already Tomorrow

October 11, 2007

WordPress is not in Pacific Standard Time and I thought I adjusted the clock appropriately but looks like I didn’t. So, this is being written today but posting as tomorrow. And the future is amazing. :)

I should also add a side note that since I only have one job where I need to be physically present, I don’t function until after 10am and even then I’m still in my pyjamas. Although I am hoping this will change – until it does – check my posts in the afternoon cuz’ you ain’t getting nothing in the morning.

That being said, I need to get out of the house more. But it’s so hard when there is no reason to. And it’s comfortable in here. And yet I’m going stir crazy. It reminds of when I lived in NYC and it was snowing and later in the evening and I hadn’t been out all day. I decided to walk to the crappy video store(usually nothing to rent) in the dark, trudging through wet snow just to move. To get out. To breathe fresh air.

I guess I’m being fooled because my place is really big (so I can walk around – even sit outside if I want to) and I can open the large windows to get air. And working at home is hard. Especially when you aren’t getting paid for most of it. And when am I going to get some Bay Area friends? Others who have nothing to do during the day, so that I have someone to talk to. Yesterday the first conversation I had happened at 7pm.

I think I need more than fresh air. I need to hear the sound of my own voice hopefully conjoined with the voices of other people. Talking to myself can get predictable…

I’m baack…

October 9, 2007

Ok, here I am again. What can I say except that I was feeling weird that I’ve had nothing to say for myself recently. That is, I was blogged about by a good friend who visited not too long ago and even did a voice recording (the link is slightly narcissistic, but whatever it’s fun, take a listen) and then another good friend started a blog and I have to admit, WordPress helped hooked me again. You see, I left Typepad because i didn’t want to pay and with Blogger I had no way to track if anyone was coming to the site. And I don’t expect everyone to leave comments but it helps when you are writing to know that someone somewhere out there, is reading. WordPress, it’s free and it tracks and best of all, I can do private blogs readable only by those who have a password- awesome. And Um, yeah…here I am again.